GAOKAO IS OVER!!!

I just sent out most of my applications today; Duke's still due tomorrow (i'm thinking about going home early tomorrow and finishing that up, then memorizing my politics/chinese...). Also sent out northeastern's app really fast; gotta remember to send out the other forms soon.

 

but anyway. I was talking about writing a new year's resolution today, mentioned it with my mom. She was like, you've been writing these things for so long, does it actually work? the only thing I could say was well it's better than nothing. so here I am, going to pour out my new year's resolutions to the world (if it cares to read), like I did last year, actually... I think.

!. get enough sleep. I'm violating this one as I'm writing it...

2. be nice to everyone, even people you don't care much for; this'll come back to either bite you or pay you

3. eat healthy and drink lots of water

4. DONT PROCRASTINATE, just do it; don't hold back

umm, yeah.

 

I applied to a lot of (really good, ultra selective) schools, don't know how much of a chance I'll stand, especially with my dad's hands in most of my essays... And I did get rejected by stanford, though there wasn't much of a surprise there.

It's kinda scary now, you know; it's going to be a full year soon, of me going (and coming back from) Japan. But looking back I can't really say I came very far. Didn't do much with my year, I'll have to say. Sure, right now I'm applying to US colleges (and it's giving me headaches and all kinds of bad stuff), but on the whole I can't really say I'm a better person than I was last year; when 364 days earlier I was on a plane to Japan, speculating on how the whole human race was just a cancer of nature; how everything seemed so insignificant, so pointless that high up, when everythings just a yellow speck on black. Awesome night for waxing philosophical, and for pessimistic thoughts, Halloween.

 

But anyway, right now I'm in the process of finalizing my essays for my Stanford Restrictive Early Action application, due Nov. 1. One wonders how I could have time to type on a blog when I have a COLLEGE APPLICATION due a mere 2 days from now. Awesome.

 

I had an even more awesome dream last night, about gggglooooriiiiiaaaa.... ~says it in same tune as 'yahoo'~ (or was it expedia? anyway...) I was just reading about dreams, maybe half an hour ago, and it said that the part of the brain responsible for generating emotions is most active during REM sleep, which is when you dream. That's kind of obvious, considering the PURE BLISS I was feeling during the dream. Why is it that

when i went back to my (dad's) hometown this winter vac (middle of feb), I put my toothbrushes (yes, I have two; one for my teeth and one for my retainers) in a plastic bag. Hygiene and all, you know. that turned out to be a mistake, because i didn't think to dry out my toothbrushes before putting them in (resulting in bacteria engaging profusely no doubt in all those nice processes i learned about it biology, like mitosis, or meiosis...), leading to a stomachache. that plagued me for at least 3 days. ~sigh~

 

then last sunday i tried to dig this piece of pencil lead out of my thumb, with a razor, and couldn't really do it. and i had like bandaids and stuff ready too. I thought i could feel the lead underneath my skin w/ the point of the razor though. so now i have this cut on the back of my left thumb, and knowing what my skins' been like the past year, it'll probably leave a scar. this piece of lead's been w/ me for at least 7 years; i think i was in third or fourth grade when i accidentally jabbed a pencil into my thumb. and its been there ever since.

a tip to cutting yourself: make sure your razor/knife is sharp. trying to hack at yourself w/ a dull razor feels plain weird, not to mention painful. ...unless that's what ur in for...

 

and the art of keeping my mouth closed took me 3 years to figure out.

my dad got another camera, one of those black monsters w/ huge lenses. it's a lot better than the old one, obviously because its like 5 years older. but it's got really good resolution, I think. ...well it takes bigger pictures.

 

and, my connections' uber slow. Stupid taiwan earthquake. ~sigh~ It better be okay by the end of jan!

I had this really dank dream last night, everything was all dark and gloomy. But I got to ride in a car that drives itself! I was sitting in the driver's seat and reading mags. It was cool. People from ssf were in it. Which is why I don't get the damp part of the dream.

There're a lot of crap-colored vehicles in beijing. and a lot of crap-colored drivers, particularly of the cabbie kind, characterized not by their color, because china is mostly an asian country, but by the number of icepicks that are up their asses on a regular day, and how that fact tends to manifest in their driving. ( !#$&%^#%, what goes around comes around, fucker.)

 

Anyway, now that that's out of my way, I've really gotta call my (not-so-old) friends some time. this long long hiatus is starting to scare me. And, That's not healthy! I think gloria's a bit more stable, now, or if not then that's too bad, cuz ready or not, here I come (maybe, in a few weeks, I'm getting there).

 

It is now an established fact that I cannot understand "how-to' books. when I only read then once. Maybe on the second try, but I usually miss the point on the first. sad.

 

uhhh... just made a HUGE mistake. I keep on doing stupid things on the net. someone keep me off.

if anyone by the alias of 'happywendy' is reading this, sorry! Mistook you for someone else